I dont see any good in reading too much into feelings or over-analysing stuff. You just end up getting confused and flustered.
If I were in your shoes I would be a good friend to her, be affectionate without being sleazy, and when she is back from her trip and over her treatment tell her how you feel.
I kinda agree with it this way, which is why I am reluctant to ask right now, until we have met as friends a couple of times, and I have shown her that I do care about her - if her reason last time is for real then I want her to know how much she means to me, and that me seeming kewl headed about it all was def not the case! I have told her this, but it may just be too late now. I guess I am also scared that she doesn't clearly understand my feelings on the matter, things I do want to just be friends (though i have given some good hints to the contray) and goes with someone else.
On our walk I did tell her that I wished I had met her now, now that she was more over her illness and that my head is in a better place, she said what if I was with someone now, I then said I am sure I would have won you over and winked! :o
However, what does make me think I am wasting my time is the lack of reply to one of my texts, I really don't wanna text again, and prob won't, as if she can't be bothered to reply, surely that is a clear sign! It also kind of puts the ball in her court, but on the other hand I know I have to prove my worth and just taking a back seat ain't gonna do that!
