HI
I joined this site after i read your post because i wanted to reply to you. I am aware that seeing the date of your post you may have already made your decision about informing work. But what i wanted to say is that i suffered emotional, physical abuse from my mum from being a baby till around the age of 8- 10yr. Then i suffered sexual assaults for three years from what i thought at the time were friends which led to years of violent rapes and gang rapes. I too buried my head in work, and anything that i could. I have had counselling for 6 years and have tried various therapists. I have improved in myself, but i still have nightmares, wet the bed, an eating disorder, and great difficulty making friends.
Then i became a counsellor as this seems the best way to hide what i have been through and i am able to empathise with others, i have strict supervision to make sure i am working ethically and that my own stuff doesn't come into the sessions.
I now have a new therapist who is a strategic therapist which seems to be helping a bit more.
Now i am not saying go and be a therapist but it is possible to carry on even though times can be really tough. The pain that you might feel for what happened to you will never go away, but it will become easier to manage and cope with. When i struggle to manage/cope then i use meditation cd's (guided ones so my own thoughts don't intervene too much) this seems to give my inner strength a boost.
So please don't ever give up otherwise that is when the people who did these things win. It's that thought that keeps me going.


