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Thanks, I'll log on to the Oystercard website for the right number of the three cards I've been through. Whether that was a subconscious way of making myself walk more, I couldn't tell you.
I'll just have to go along tonight and be myself I suppose, once I get the directions.
Got there just in time on Thursday night and half the group was away but it was useful to meet other survivors and talk in general, indepedently of where I go for my counselling. Did more listening than talking but that will change as the meetings progress. They are only monthly and that's as much as I could handle at the minute.
Plus, I was the new guy anyway so the rest of the group have to get to know me, more than vice versa.
On the bright side when friends emailed me a job on deadline day (yesterday) I snapped to it and got it there before 5pm and it was accepted. On the minus side I slept 13 hours overnight. Will get caught up on print ads only to get myself back to it.
Overslept again, so it wasn't necessarily the double dose of therapy causing it. It would be strange if it was the fact that I was walking again at exercise pace that was causing me to get so knackered! Mentally felt fine overnight, though I was awake at 5am or so before going back to bed - but it wasn't that cold which is the normal reason I can't stay asleep. Strange. No point trying to analyse it, just got to make the best of when I'm awake.
On the bright side my Mansized prize turned up today! :-) Postie got me out of bed in the end for a recorded delivery.
In the last two months I've bought one hat per month from Sainsbury's at £3 a pop, so life must be going well - best to be prepared for the bobble since it'll be cold and windy up until March and I'll have a backup just in case I lose one.
Group therapy's been getting better as the numbers have filled out to full strength for the first time since I've been going, I got to do public speaking uninterrupted for 15mins last month which was nerve wracking until I actually did it - though the chosen subject (how to move on) only popped into my head the night before. The transition to fortnightly individual therapy was painless and the job search took over last month in a big way.
One week short of a year into the healing process, there's only one more big book I need, The Courage To Heal which Amazon has down to nine quid. Being the longest reference I've read this far, I couldn't be bothered with a library copy which I would need to take back all the time, so I'll dig into the savings and buy it. I've also moved on to other "generally inspiring" survival/endurance memoirs that aren't always about abuse and back to fiction.
So I'm feeling much better even if not much else has happened, I know I'm mentally ready to get back in work and earn money whilst continuing therapy so that's the natural focus for 2008.
One hour until I set off for the final counselling session of the year, and what a year it's been. Glad to leave 2007 behind. First session of the year's Jan 2nd and I'll see how long it'll take in the new year to get down to monthly.
I have another fiver on a credit card thanks to a standing order so picked up my own copy of The Courage To Heal, which is probably the last major book I need to read as a survivor (and the longest), thankfully it works for both genders. It'll be one less out of the library.
Despite the cold it might be a night to relax at the flicks but I'll see how I feel afterwards and it depends what's on.
I haven't posted much about it except above on this page [EDIT - if you've set your preferences to 20/25 posts per page that is] and it's a month off group therapy due to the season, we're just going to the pub. Back properly at the end of the month. Stuff last year I got through it and it's over, though with the highlight of having joined Mansized on Boxing Day 06.
Back to individual counselling tomorrow, fortnightly now, we'll see about hitting monthly as of Feb since I've had the emotional rest I needed and want to get back to work now.
